::church week::

i spent my almost whole of sunday in church of our lady of perpetual succour. it was the "rites of election" where my name is endorsed by the arch bishop in singapore and sent to the vatican city. baptism is really just a month away.


taken in the OLPS church chapel with kaiting.

lent is a season where we reflect upon ourselves and reflect upon the scriptures in luke, where jesus was tempted in the wilderness with riches, glory and power and how he eventually survived the ordeal without being tempted by satan.

in church today, we talked about sufferings. and we were to think about why God made us all suffer in any one point in time.

i wasn't really paying attention and i joined the rest of the backrow people in slumber till i woke up, he said something about "suffering as a form of punishment for your sins committed".

i suddenly realised why i have been suffering in a relationship all these while.

it was a forbidden relationship to begin with.

the deeper i go into it, the more i'll suffer.

strangest thing is, this forbidden relationship surfaced during the season of lent, same time jesus was being tempted by satan, i was likewise. but of course, contrary to wad jesus did, i gave in to temptation.

was it a test? was it satan?

well, i truly deserve a God's kick in the ass.